A New Chapter Awaits
On August 1, 2020, when I wake up and I no longer own Great Heights LLC, maybe it will hit me what I accomplished, what I will miss, and certainly what I failed at. But one thing that won’t hit me is a sense I have made the wrong decision.
After nearly nine years of owning a business, and six years of operating it full time, I am closing up shop. In January I informed my clients and vendors that I would be stepping away in order to pursue other interests effective at the end of the day on July 31, 2020. I’m not sure what those “other interests” are quite yet. I have ideas. I have interests. But nothing set in stone. After all, I still have lots of clients to serve and work to complete before closing the chapter on this part of my life.
What I do know is, even though owning a business can be stressful and frustrating and scary, it was worth the experience. I built something. Maybe it didn’t get to the level I once imagined or thought I wanted, but I feel a sense of accomplishment in having entered the arena. I have also felt for some time now, even more so, the need to listen to myself and to move on because it is time.
It is certainly hard to ever give something up you’ve worked to build. Mostly because of what others will think. What others will assume to be the reasons. I read something that struck me when I came across it months ago as I was considering this.
“I prioritized the perception of me, over me.”
This really hit me. We oftentimes hang on to the things we know are no longer right for us in order to save face, to maintain a perception we want others to hold. This helped give me the clarity I needed to admit to myself I was burnt out on many fronts. So, I have taken the steps to face that burnout, and in that process, I realized that what I am doing is no longer what I want to be doing. It is important to be honest with myself and my clients.
I don’t look at this as “giving up” as much as I look at it as “letting go”. There is a big difference.
I started this journey back in the spring of 2011. I thoughtfully pursued the idea of going out on my own and had many conversations with those who had done it. At one point during that time, I made the decision against it, too scared to give up the comforts that come with working for someone else. But, my gut kept nagging me, and weeks later I decided to make the leap. I am grateful I did. It has been quite the experience. No regrets.
Now, I am ready to, quite simply, do something else. And over the next few months, I hope to figure that out. There is nothing overly dramatic about this decision. It’s just time for a change.
Thanks to all of my clients, the contractors and vendors, the mentors and coaches, and friends and family, for their support during this chapter.
Decisions like this are never easy. However, I have always loved change, so I know I’ll be just fine. For now, I will be working hard over the course of the next several months with my clients. Then, I hope to weigh my options and explore different opportunities, some I have in mind and I know some will come up that I least expect. I’m looking forward to what’s ahead.
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